If you’re a human being past the preoperational stage of cognitive development, chances are you have asked yourself this question: “What is my purpose in life?” If you have not done so up to this point and you have managed to get to this blog post on your own, you might want to throw the question to yourself now.
I first wondered about my Purpose and Identity during the Barbs Pre-Christian era. See, I did not know much about Him back then. I barely read my Bible. I was sure I did not know how to read it that the chapter and verse numbers confounded me. “Why were there so many numbers!??” was what I was thinking when I would leaf through the Bible. I did not often take God into the decision-making process. As far as Barbs Pre-Christian was concerned, God was only a moral variable. If my actions were immoral, I probably was making God angry. Instead of thinking if I was hurting Him, my focus was on the tendency of Him being vindictive. My actions were not fruits of my faith in Him which should have been the case. But how so when my faith was as weak as a 100ft tower with sand as its foundation. I was not yet founded on a Rock.
Given the not so rosy background without God in the picture, I was searching for my identity. Imagine living without an identity and I was already 16 or 17 at that time! Those who know their supposed identities have it hard already. Think about the lack of one!? Chaotic.
During the formulation of my identity inside my laboratory a.k.a my room, I was basing it on my passions, hobbies, interests, and whatnot. I recall settling with being a photographer. Haha! My existence would have been as shallow as a pa-cute wishing well! One does not even have to bend down to have a peak of what was at the bottom. The first mistake was to make my desires as the starting point. I am not a creature of this world. I am a spiritual being and I belong to Him. It is for this reason that I should begin with God, His purpose for me, and how He plans to use me for His purposes. He is my creator and only Him can understand me and all my bric-a-brac. An invention cannot fully explain itself. But through the Source, the importance, purpose, and meaning of the invention can be known. I can choose my career to my heart’s content, but I can never choose my Purpose. God has already designed one for me and for everyone else long before we even considered Him as our Savior. He designed it in such a way that our Purpose is bigger than our biggest dreams.
Thank God, He intervened in my foolish and worldly inquiry for a Purpose and an Identity. Now that I have come to know my God on a deeper and more intimate level, I can now claim my genuine identity. My Purpose and Identity could not be based anymore on the career that I want to pursue or whatever this world can offer. My Purpose and Identity are now based on what He did on the Cross. It is not anymore about becoming who I aspire to be. Rather, it is about the woman He created me to be.
It just isn’t about me. It is about God’s cosmic purpose.